Cannot - A Poem

I have always told you
You could tell me anything
And for many years you have
But there was one thing you were holding back
Waiting
For the right time
But that time never came

You say
That time and time again
You have watched me give my heart
To another
And when it was crushed
You were there to help me
Pick up the shattered pieces
When all you ever wanted
Was just one chance to show me love

But now you tell me
That last time was the last time
That your tired heart cannot take
It any more
And this time I am on my own
You tell me
You are walking away
Because it hurts too much
To love me

And when my fragile heart
Is broken
Once again
I will truly be alone
And I will know
Finally
What it feels like to be you

Your words cut through me
Deep into my soul
A pain I never knew existed
(And I know something about pain)
And I know you mean
These words you say
I know I have to say goodbye
Set you free

I wish so much that things
Were different
I wish I could have loved you
The way that you wanted
And I don't want to lose you
In my life
But I cannot
I cannot be that girl for you
I cannot be your "everything"
I cannot love you
As you want me to

And we cannot add this
To the list of things best left unsaid
And you cannot live in silent torture anymore
And I know why you have to go
I understand now
And we can never go back

But if you're leaving
You need to go now
Walk away
And don't say goodbye
Because I cannot
I cannot see the pain in your eyes
And know it is because of me
I cannot watch your heart break
And know I am the cause

So please just go then
And don't look back
Because I cannot be
Who you need me to be
I'm sorry